Ssheps.com - Comments left by people who knew Jeremy 

 DISCLAIMER  (click to read)

In the early 2000s, Steele Shepherd was the first person online to try to humanize Jeremy and research about the kind of person he was. His website and hard work were an important source of inspiration for every person who decided to get to know Jeremy after him.

Sadly, following his death in early 2020, his website domain expired. I have therefore decided to preserve part of Ssheps' work by re-posting it on my website. Please notice that the info I will share will only be about Jeremy's personality and the things people who actually knew him had to say about him. Since my website aims at humanizing him, I won't focus on his last day or the song. For more details, you can find a copy of Ssheps' website here on the Wayback Machine.


All the credit for the following info and pictures goes to Steele Shepherd.

Amy

"Jeremy was an amazing soul who has become infamous for his saddest moment. He would have never wanted that. At that time, he'd have wanted to be known for his skatboarding."

Shea B.

Hey man, I just wanted to say, cool site. It's been almost 15 years since my buddy Jeremy took his own life. I still think of him. I found this site and thought i would say hello. I have awesome pictures of Jeremy and I. I played soccer with him from the time we were 5 - 11 years old. We were friends at Gaston Middle School and Bryan Adams High School. If you want to really know about who Jeremy was, talk to me. But from what I read on your site things seems to be quite accurate. Jeremy was a harmless yet lost teenage kid that could have done anything he desired if it wasn't for his home life and pressure of being cool in a new high school. Jeremy is just a small story but he was an unbelievably caring and smart person. Respectfully, Shea Byers, Bryan Adams, Class of 1993

From Shelly:

Can't believe has been 16 years. Went to HS with him at BA. Used to write back and forth. Joked I was the older woman by one day. I actually had a crush on him but he was too into his madness to notice. A few days before he took his life, he called our friend Rachel and told her he was going away and would not be back. He was saying goodbye. I found this out just a few months ago. Jeremy would have rather have been dead than to feel anymore pain he hid so well. Thank you for remembering my Jeremy. He would be thrilled to know his legacy still goes on today each time his SONG is played. Always took my cigs too. Miss you "silly boy" and I am still older.

Well let me see, I was not aware he had a girlfriend at the time. Jeremy had a kind heart, he really did. Not very many people got close enough to see that. He hid behind a very dark yet macho cloud. Yet he was the most timid person I ever met. He had the most beautiful eyes too. They were very sad eyes like mine were. He and I would smoke together and he always took my cigarettes (I am going on 3 years now that I quit for good). I can't for the life of me remember the class we had together but I remember passing notes back and forth. I have my yearbook somewhere packed away. 

His mom basically abandoned him and his dad was no Saint either. In fact he was too wrapped up into his new wife to notice what was going on with Jeremy. I remember telling him about my horrible life and vice versa. Some of the things I must take with me as I promised to never say anything and I keep that promise even 16 years later! I was born on February 9th 1975 and he was born on February 10th 1975. So I am the oldest! I used to joke with him on that. 

One day I came to class and he was gone. They took him away to a mental hospital. I kept thinking thank god! He's going to get the help he needs. But I never thought for once he was suicidal! I never saw him again. :( So there it was and I met my horrible ex and he did not even let me go to Jeremy's funeral. He was that jealous. Lost many of our friends a few more to suicide, a couple to car accidents, one was killed by her jealous boyfriend, one was shot at Blockbuster in cold blood and I think one drowned. My on again off again boyfriend (also a HS sweetheart) Chris grew up with Jeremy and he never liked Jeremy always called him a Punk. If he only knew why he acted like such a Punk. Chris was very angry at Jeremy for taking his life and still to this day will not talk to me about it. 

So much of your article is right on the money and you have great sources. I was astounded when I learned of the Jeremy song by a band I did not even like. I played it over and over and can sing lyric by lyric to anyone. In fact it is on my work Windows Media Player. January 8th every year I play it. In memory of him of course. That's about all of Pearl Jam I can take. Love this song though. Don't understand why they have in with no shirt on? 

Jeremy was somewhat a degenerate as your article stated. He really had a knack for getting in trouble. Spent many a days skipping with our friend Rachel. I was Miss Goody Two Shoes and stayed in school. He truly did live in his own world. 

"Silly Boy" is a nickname I had for him. I had a huge crush on him. Don't think he ever knew or caught on. Or if he did he did not let it be known. He did not die a virgin or at least he told me he had intimacy with a chick from school that must remain anonymous. I was shocked to hear about a suicide happening close to home, even more shocked when I heard the name. I was sick to my stomach for days.

He went to live with his dad after he got out of the hospital (should have kept him longer) and I believe that is where he lost it. He lost the drive to live. He did not want anymore pain. He would purse up his lips when he was deeply saddened. In fact most pictures I remember and memories I remember have him pursing his lips up. I kept thinking no not Jeremy. Not Jeremy. Our other friend named Jeremy told me and I was like no you are lying, but he wasn't. It was not a lie. Jeremy really is gone. He's no longer suffering. Yea I really do think he would have been a little cocky at the fact he is world-known and has a popular band's song based and named after him. He loved that Rock type music where I was more into what else-pop. 

If I saw him today I would probably smack him and say Why leave us like that! As far as doing it in front of his class. I think maybe he wanted to leave a statement behind. Wished I knew what that was. I tried to contact his dad and he will not talk to anyone about it all. If we only knew what was written in his suicide note we'd have the answers. I hope I was able to share some of my times with Jeremy with you. Some day I will find that old box and see if I can't recover some photos for you. Til then add me to the list of updates. I will be in contact.

Shelly aka back then Shelly Hall

Yea he made fun of me name too. Smelly Hall, Shelly Belly, etc.... little dork. I miss him

Jessica A.

JUST A QUICK FYI ON JEREMY. I HAVENT SEEN IT MENTIONED ON HERE, BUT HE WAS ALSO A DRUMMER. HE WAS ONE OF ONLY A FEW DRUMMERS I HAVE LISTENED TO THAT COULD PLAY "WIPEOUT" FROM BEGINNING TO END WITH ALMOST NO MISTAKES, AND THAT WAS WHEN HE WAS LIKE 13 OR 14. I WONDER WHAT HE COULD HAVE DONE WITH THAT TALENT IF THINGS HAD BEEN DIFFERENT. OH WELL JUST SOME MORE INFO FOR YOU.

Doug

Hi. My name is Doug and I was looking at your website about Jeremy Delle. I was in the classroom the day Jeremy killed himself. [...]

That year I was Mrs. Barnett's student aide. So during 5th period I was tasked with grading her quizes/tests and doing other clerical work for her. I bring this up because one week (before the suicide) I was grading vocabulary tests and came across Jeremy's. He hadn't answered most of the questions on the test and had written a note to Mrs. Barnett apologizing for his not performing well on the quiz. After his death, I dwelled on that note. I thought that, although I never knew him personally, the note really illustrated the kind of heart that Jeremy must of had. I still believe to this day that our 2nd period English class was a place that he felt comfortable and, hence, was why he chose to end his life there.

Jessica

YES JEREMY HAD A WONDERFUL FUNERAL. I WENT TO THAT FUNERAL AS DID MANY OF MY FRIENDS. IT WAS STANDING ROOM ONLY AT HIS FUNERAL, AND IT WAS A GOOD SIZE CHURCH. THE CHURCH WAS IN DALLAS ON GUS THOMASSON NEAR HIS OLD NEIGHBORHOOD. RIP JEREMY, YOU ARE MISSED. :-(

Michelle

I went to school with Jeremy Delle before he x-ferred to RHS. The yearbook picture you have is from 90-91. That is likely the reason he is not listed in the "Not Listed" section of Richardson's yearbook.

I didn't know Jeremy very well, although he was close friends with my high school sweetheart and their group (I was a year behind all of them.)

Leah

I just read all you have written on Jeremy Delle. I went to middle school with him. He was a good friend. I was brought to tears by the photo of the Richardson High School yearbook's memorial: Your eyes will forever be in our memories. That is what I can bring into my mind still so vividly. And his freckles. He played the trumpet. He was funny. He was kind. I guess I never knew the troubles behind that smile, nor he mine. I wasn't around when all this happened.

Robert B.

Jeremy would be thrilled to see all the attention he has gotten since he died. He was a close friend of mine as we both went to Bryan Adams and to Casa View Baptist Church together. All he ever wanted was attention, as he didnt get much at home. Rest in Peace brother...you are still missed.

Dorie, June 8th, 2016

I attended school with Jeremy in 9th grade at Richardson Jr. High and then in 10th grade at RHS. [...] 

As we walked out of the front door of the school a reporter must have taken a photo of me with my head down crying while my mom tried to console me. Little did I know that photo would be across the front page of the Dallas newspaper the next morning. I attended his funeral and was floored at the amount of people and teens that came. Some of them the same ones who wouldn't give him the time of day. Who mocked him for being someone who did weird stuff in class just for attention. Why now? Why come and support now? I will admit that the majority of my friends consisted of the cheerleaders, drill team, the "popular" crowd. But something in Jeremy caught me when he sat next to me in math on his first day of Junior high. He would confide in me about the special girl in his life. His eyes and face would light up when talking about her. But things got worse for him during that summer before high school. I don't talk much about my connection to him or "the song" which means I don't share that he stopped me on the way to class that morning and had a huge smile on his face and hugged me. 

[...] I will always remember his eyes that showed so much of him if you only took the time to get to know him. I will always remember his corny jokes and the little notes we would pass back and forth in 9th grade. 

Jeremy's death happened over 25 years ago but I think of him often, especially when I drive by his resting place each morning on my way to work. I hope that the people who visit this site take the time to really read the posts from the ones who knew and loved him and not just remember him for the song. Don't get me wrong. It's a great song. But we also lost a great boy who still had so much life to live. […] Dorie (Davis) Hill RHS Class of '93